This poem was written on July 28, 1995. It seems to struggle with which situation is worse: being hurt by love or never being loved at all. If I can say anything about my younger self, it would be I was intense.
Longing For Love
The things I feel
Inside myself
Will never come to light
There is too much pain
Blocking the dreams
For coming true for me
I cannot open my heart
It has been broken and bruised
Far too many times
My eyes could not stand
Another tear to fall
At the same time,
My heart cannot stand
To be completely alone.
I have never felt special enough
Never felt I was the only one
My loves are always one-sided
And leave me feeling empty inside
I cannot be cold
I refuse to close my heart
But at the same time
My broken spirit cannot take much more
Do I not deserve to be loved
And cherished for the rest of my life?
I want someone
To tenderly take my heart into their hands
I just want to know
What love feels like
Before my tears stop
My heart shatters
And my loving side passes away.
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